Friday, 13 June 2008
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Hello God, it's me Krista.
I have run away and come back to the church several times. Now I don't know where I belong. The life I lead right now is not of that of a Christian. It is that of a lost and confused girl who tends to be selfish, impatient, and disrespectful to others and to herself. I hear people talk about their love of the Lord because of what He had done for us and his promise of everlasting life but I just don't feel it. I want to be able to one day say, "I love Jesus" not as a joke but as a real declaration of my love for Him. For now, I sit back in amazement of those who truly live their lives for the Lord and wonder if I could ever be one of them.
The one miracle that I felt He perfomed in my life was that of me getting treatment for my depression. It was during my darkest hour that I really felt God's presence.
I wonder if God is proud of me or if He's disappointed by my behavior.
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Comments (2)
Hey, I saw you from the ROMOT!!! God, meets you where you whereever you may be in your faith walk. The fact that you're asking these questions shows that he wants you to open your arms to him and trust him. No one is a perfect being, but thats why we ALL need God's love. Those people you speak of have let God into their lives and transform them. You can do the same
trust me, everyone asks if their faith is as strong as others, but you can't gage your relationship with God by others because everyone has a unique relationship with him. You're doing great, and God loves you and is proud of you... why? because he created you!
i'm glad you posted this. don't give up, we are all seeking together.